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eja slade
1 month ago

Net message Part two.

Yes, I've been given an extension! Happy days. Just want to talk about depression once more. I still suffer now and again, but am mostly in fine fettle. Between these texts, I'm thinking about you. I know it's hard to cope, a lot of the time, and ending it all seems the only way. I remember attempting it myself, three times, and thank God I failed. Believe me, suicide is not the answer, no way. You have so, so much to offer, if you think you're a bad person, you're not, you have so much goodness in you, if you could only reach inside yourself, and realise that you are meant to be, you belong on this earth, no matter what anyone might say. I remember my own down times, everything seemed impossible, in terms of really living my life to the full. Now, nothing could be further from the truth. I have managed to totally (99%) turn everything around, and am fast making up for lost time. How? Well, as I said before, anger played a major part in my recovery, and what I actually did was, I got angry with myself, for allowing myself to be monopolised by psychiatrists, and hospital staff in general. I got angry with them too, and, funny enough, all of this led to my being released. What a day that was! They obviously realised I had broken the spell, and belonged in hospital no more. You can do it too, really reach inside, and yes, think of the good times, and try not to take life too seriously. You are the owner of you, not anybody else. You are the expert, when it comes to what your life is about. You. And another thing : Rely on yourself, and yourself alone, especially when no-one understands. This counts for all, both family and friends. I can count my real friends on one hand, and I don't fully trust anyone. Anyone. I am me, I am now, and I will get along, just try and stop me. A little bit of anger there. Don't get me wrong, I am not a hot head, as such, in fact I am a temperamentally controlled customer. It's just that I don't take any crap these days. I was a fool for a long time. No more. I am very, very happy in my own skin, and I believe very much in myself. And here's another thing : you can count me as a friend, because out there, it's dog eat dog, it's (sometimes) a cut-throat world. About trust again. I do trust a small group of individuals, but only up to a point. We all need that. I am not paranoid, not any more. My mind is too strong for that. Going to go now, remember, we all have different ways of coping, I can only tell you mine. Another thing : listen to as much of your favourite music as you can, each and every day. As you probably know, there is nothing like it. Remember, your own personal favourites. Lotsa love, peace, and hugs, yours, Eja xxx.

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