End Times!
From a broken mind and a addicts actions, have in me a war with in--I can not fathem! Self thought to much of the time , as each day Im always about my self, but always staggering. Weak in faith but I do believe, feeling fake like when I say such things the fear in me is always construing and snatching them away!. Having such a conflicting mentality I find myself as a lier in faith and into my own "Will" and because of this reviling self truth I am dead inside for being selfishly living. Scared to read the words of life to ensure a resurrecting ends beginning, instead I tremble in fear due to my weak understanding of truth in life everlasting! I grew up masking my conflicts by being and becoming an addict steadily declining and always lacking. Its my fault! I now am starting to recognize this and its a bit overwhelming. So I am always thinking its to late for me to due a 180- relapsing being an casualty in such manifestation. Its the end of the times we or i am in or its a beginning to those who believe in HIM! So to those who have a ???? % faith and understanding belief in the Word That Is Living! I hope you share it with those lost like me and change their ending? Im about to turn 41 and have been lead astray not by others but my ignorance and my lifestyle and faulting ways. Regards freaky b.
