Might be the realest post i ever posted....I witnessed a lioness fight for the past 5 months an her king couldnt protect her anymore. God had other plans for my baby. Im mourning to yall because i love each an every last 1 of you. Smh my heart is shattered into a time rift of pain. I see her walking in a field of flowers now........December 1st 2020 took another "Piece of me". She really was my Queen in this cold cold world an the docs killed my baby. Its taken everything in me to not destroy their souls for what i watch them take from me an she didnt deserve that. So many people are being killed and or dying an nobody hears the cries? Watching my queens eyes turn to death changed my heart. I reach for the air when i feel warm thinking of her when i want to hug her. All in all im just asking for some prayers because this 1 hit different. Hard to breath sometimes.....i love her........The Joker in Pain now Im painting a smile.....N1M fans pray for me an my son.......these demons i tell you about are real.....This is truly my "Beauty in the Struggle".....her name was Courtney..........i cried going through her clothes this evening ......wanting to remember her scent.....I grabbed her hospital band wit a little blood on it lol......they killed my Queen........smh.........Her voice in my head is really the only thing keeping my from not flashing out into Demon mode................So much is going on with everybody im praying for a better place for everyone who lost somebody close this year or ever that gave your heart the VOID...... JoeX