Hiya! Thank Yous so so much for your thoughts in text over the Silly Season! The true message of Christmas, though always foremost in each passing day of each year, was a bit darkened by my realisation that I had indeed divorced my Husband of 12 years and that I was ill-prepared to take care of myself solely! I do really need Other People, and even though it hurts very badly sometimes from misunderstandings and "really? Wow! I didn't really want to know that/see that/hear that" moments, I am still prepared to go the extra mile for each and Every One whom God sends my way to try and help along their way xxx Not easy to know that I cannot be financially, spiritually and physically independent, but boy, yes, I tried hard! Anyways, besides those who left me in their own search for better paths, I'm here, STUCK IN THE MIDDLE WITH YOU, and I hope that Yous know I don't stop trying to be better at living! I still don't partake in alcohol and drugs, but of course, that was a stumbling block with the incoming happiness I felt to have a 0 percent Alcoholic Beer, only to find out it contains 0.03 per cent! And then, my discovery that I, too, may benefit from the use of 3 drops of Cannabis Oil for my Osteoarthritis! I have been able to move freely and explore parts of my back that were previously out of reach because of the pains stopping me from working off all that i ate and drank! Yes, a total transformation took place in the physical sense which boosted me totally to a NEW ME! The photographs of me I took lovingly at the time, show a very pudgy person, and now I feel HIP and UP TO DATE, as well and YOUTHFUL and quite 'athletic', if I may use that word - I am smiling because I usually come last in races and stuff! So, Yes, I'm anxiously awaiting Monday so that i may have a real conversation with a real person at my music right site because I discovered that after all this time, my songs are showing ZERO percent for my royalty cut! Wow! Gees! I'm so weirded out! I know that the one song i did, a cover of Led Zeppelin, is properly royaltized, and therefore legal, but the others show ZERO! It is up to me to fill in the percentages, and I'm sure I did, but now, there is nothing... Am I so remiss in my memory and time wasting that I couldn't even do such a thing in all the time that's passed? Anyways, time to get that sorted! Guess when I look back over the passed 15 years, it seems that I had just taken a back seat and cruised as if all would fall into place without much effort from my side, although I know I did sit mostly each night at the PC doing something! Well, what else is news? Cannabis Oil is hopefully going to be legal as a medicine soon here in my Country. I think they're just waiting to pass the legislation. I am so glad that Yous support me in my efforts to BE SomeOne, and I am thankful. In the long run, it is just a daughter who wants to make her Mom and Dad and Family happy to have her around, I guess! And of course, not be admonished by those in Power for being a total dushbag! Anyways, I'm sure that I'm doing okay - I am only human and doing my best and I mustn't beat myself up for being a human bean! lol! I do hope that this year is good for us All, and that we may celebrate one more good one for the 2nd decade of the 21st Century! Is that correct and right? Confusing, f'sure, sometimes! Have a great one and Best, Best Regards to You and Yours! Loads of love, raine xxx