I have decided to Part ways with The Akademia Awards Ceremony. I really enjoyed being in the Spotlight. We won 5 out of 5 monthly music awards through them. If you going to stay on top and be the best you have to live life like your on Top Gun. There are no points for second Place. As a submariner I am bound to my duty of the Core Values of the Navy... Honor Courage and Commitment. The price of pain there is no time to complain. If you want to be the best you have to lead by example. We all make mistakes and we all get fubared every now and again. I have had 5 midlife crisis trying to get through the Pain of my childhood. Son of an Army brat at Fort Bragg, North Carolina. I used to be so pissed off at my dad because he could never make rank. I got out of the Navy when the going got too tough for me. My grandfather just passed and he Was a Screaming Eagle just Like Jimi Hendrix. He was a Lion he taught me everything. That's what Leos are for. I am a middle child the 3rd of 4. We are the glue that holds the Family together through thick and thin. It really does hurt when you get no respect from anyone. I have decided since I am a retired disabled vet I make enough money to just record songs at home instead of going into the studio. The lessons you learn as a child get you through your life. Its when puberty hits you lose your mind because now women want you and have to discern what woman is right for you in your life. I can't keep a gf for more than 6 months. They just get tired of me because I don't spend more money on them. Its a West Coast thing... High Dollar High Fame. If I just had a bunch of rubber bullets I could kill the Pain. The answers to life's questions are a riddle as old as time. If you can't find what your looking for, maybe you need to stop and have a cup of coffee and take a week off. I am what I do. Just a workaholic and nothing to do. It really sucks I have about 10 albums worth of material written down. I have been slugging out playing the Guitar Since 2001. I thought if I bought a guitar and learned how to play I could find a gf. Its not that simple if you want a gf go to the Playboy Mansion. If you want a wife you give her control. If your not willing to go to hell and back for a Woman, you have no sense talking to her. I wish I could Fly with Maverick and Goose and Tell them I got your Back I am a submariner if you need me to give you dolphins just tell send a signal. The only real men in the Navy are Fighter Pilots and Submariners. GroundPounders can't make it on subs. Seen it all the time. If you lazy god don't want you. Life is Simple your either qualified or not. Just cause your qualified doesn't mean you work. The older I get the mental struggles become more and more discerning. If you make it Past 40 your just an adolescence. That's when life throws your a curve ball. Do you want to keep on being who you are or do you want to grow up. I want a wife in my life. I am tired of chasing the same gfs of my Past. If you can't forgive a woman you have no reason to talk to her. MT/2 SS signing out.