A Letter To My Loyal Fans
Hello, My Loyal Fans,
I’m writing to you because after taking a much-needed break, I realized that I really blew things up in your all’s faces with my breakdown, aka, “resignation rant”. Therefore, I’d like to explain what happened, answer some of your questions, and discuss some ideas I had for future directions.
First, I wish to apologize for that. I’m sure the last posts were cause for concern and I’m hoping it didn’t cause you all to jump ship. I had hit my limits with a confluence of things that were going on in my life. I just had yet another unexpected relocation, anything and everything challenging my patience because they weren’t going smoothly at all and finding out that a long-time stalker was trolling me again – destroying yet another relationship, I was completely at my wit’s end – especially since I didn’t have anyone to confide my feelings and frustrations to at the time. It seemed my prayers were being answered, but with a resounding, “NO!”
I had this feeling of being utterly alone, isolated, and well, just overwhelmed with having to do everything on my own and nobody there to help with promoting and collaborating on music projects. Coupled with the events of the past couple of years, I was a rope that was severely frayed, and the last strands were snapping so to speak. I literally was feeling like a tiny, unheard voice in the middle of a huge whirlwind.
I want you all to know that this stubborn, resilient son of a bitch, despite the desire to just cut and run, and leave it all behind, just can’t find the ultimate motivation to just quit. On reflection, I realized even more that if I abandoned my fans, you would leave me in turn. I couldn’t bare that to happen; although given my recent placement on the N1M charts, it looks like you all may have already gone. I’m sorry. I suppose I did blow it.
Where do I go from here? There are a couple of things that I can do in the short term. First, I have a collaboration that I did about15 years ago that’s kind of interesting in that it’s flute and drums, plus a drum machine. I’m thinking of re-releasing that in conjunction with the rest of the tracks from ancestral Voices. I’m also looking at getting in touch with the studio that I recorded Ancestral Voices at and see if they have some of the extra tracks I recorded, enough for an EP, and release those.
Beyond that, I’ve been having some ideas about expanding my genre experience and expanding into things like Rock, Trance, and House. I even have imaginations about doing things akin to the type of material of Shpongle and Phuture Primitive. Yes, I’m feeling closterphobic with ambient and ceremonial. I must take the flutes out of the box. But again, that’s going to require collaboration. So, I’m not making any promises there. It’s been a dream of mine to be the Native American answer to Ian Anderson and Jethro Tull of sorts.
Okay. Enough said here. Again, I apologize for my outburst and any alienation that it may have caused you all. I hope I didn’t lose all of what little I’ve built. Yes, I’ll answer emails as I’ve been doing up until my breakdown and hopefully, with your support, I’ll come upon that next breakthrough.
Thank you all for being my fans and being so supportive of my career as a recording artist. I hope you all continue to enjoy the music and that it makes a positive impact on your lives.
Sincerely,
WSE.